Undetermined Way

My fucking soul is dying
I can't take it anymore
I don't hear any answer
I'm done after all
anyway
I can't say I don't want to wait
eventhough it's really hard

sometimes I feel like I wanna cut myself in silence
nevertheless I can't do that
the reason is that I'm so fucking weak

I wanna be stronger
I swear I wanna do my best
But sometimes i think
is it really worth it???
what I do for him is it really worth it?????

Can't answer that

I still remember everyday
I still feeling the same way
I did a year ago
nothing has changed

what I thought that was possible
maybe is impossible
why can't you change???
why can't I change???
why am I still living the same way
if I know it just makes me feel like crap
why am I still in love with you
if I know what kind of person you are
You've never loved me
You've never been SINCERE

this is all trash
this is all a lie
PLEASE can anybody just wake me up
from this nightmare?
I wanna close my eyes without start crying
I wanna see the other side of reality

I'm still unable to reach your heart
will I ever reach it??
should I give up before I get more deeply consumed by your hell?

If i don't stop now
then I won't be able to do it in time
If I give up now I won't be able to see what I want

Both ways are undetermined